I think I'm emotionally attracted to you.

I seem to suffer from 'White Knight Syndrome'
Always have to save people,
and I feel protective of you
I want to keep you safe
For not only you're safety,
but my own needs.
You make me feel safe,
and I need that stability in my life.

pondering

do you ever get that feeling of contentment,
to just lie there cause you feel safe and comfortable?
just breathing with someone
just being in the same vicinity with them?

I feel that with you

I feel like I don't need to fill silence with chatter
because I feel happy and warm just breathing with you
I don't even have to have physical contact with you
just breathing with you
is enough

get the girl

So about a month ago, I got my cards read by this dude on Cuba St, and what it basically got down to was that I had to choose what I wanted in life. He also said there was a gorgeous woman in my life and if I wanted her I could get her. And then up came the conflict card and he told me I had to fight for her and it will be an uphill battle. Then the other day I was messaging her on Facebook, and she told me the guy she's been seeing just moved to Canada and all I could think was 'It's my turn now' time to be charming, time to fight, time for once in my life to GET THE GIRL.

It DOES Gets Better

Just wanted to share something that happened yesterday. Me and my flat mates were discussing how homophobic society is (me being a lesbian) towards the LGBT community, and one of my flat mates shared something that made me feel so honoured to know her. She works at a movie theater, and she overheard these boys in line using homophobic slurs including f****t, so when they got to the front of the line she refused to serve them. This is the biggest stand against homophobia anyone of my friends have ever taken and it made me feel so much better just knowing that there are people who stand up for our rights as human beings. It made me see her in a new light and gave me so much respect for her. SO to all the people fighting for us, thank you, and to all the LGBT reading this and strggling or just wanting something to uplift them, It DOES Get Better.

Love to you all,
and to my amazing flat mate

Tash

Day 29 - The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

note: i know I've been skipping days and gone for months without posting but no-one reads this anyways it's just theraputic for me :)

You scare me,
actually you terrify me
I know what's happening
I've been there before
and I don't wish to return
I can't even say it in written word
It's too much,
too soon

Day 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to

I promised I'd look after myself
and I am

Just let me do what I'm doing
I've got it under control
Stop worrying about me
I'll be fine

you think you're sooo funny
taunting people with your insults, disguised as jokes
what you don't realise is you hurt people
you hurt me
I hurt myself because you hurt me
I'm sick of your attitude
Just fuck off

You want us to be a family
But to be honest
I don't know you
You're a stranger to me
and I know just around the corner
You're leaving again

So why does it hurt
when I don't even know you
Why does it burn
when you don't even know me

you're not her

My whole life I was used
I was treated like a doormat
People would just walk all over me
Eventually I got sick and tiredof being fucked over
I decided that from that moment forth
That I wouldn't let anyonetake advatage of me again
or take me for granted
There is only one person who I would still allow to,
But you're not her.

Would you ever consider sleeping with a girl?

Would you ever consider sleeping with a girl?

Answer here